My experience with School Push-out started my freshman year of high school. I always knew the challenges I was going to face were going to be that I cross-dress and I am gay. So the bullying kicked off the first week of school.
At first it was just regular taunting and teasing from kids that I usually got from people on the streets. About 2 weeks after that and people started to notice my personality and found out that I wasn’t a girl the bullying escalated. I regularly got teased, things thrown at me, and unfair punishment.
When I went to the principal and gave names they wouldn’t do anything, so I stop trying because of the fear of retaliation and I figured nothing would be done. I felt who would want to be a witness of the gay kid. I’ve been told by my assistant principal that I shouldn’t be dressing like a girl or wearing wigs and extensions. The head principal told me if I wasn’t dressing like a drag queen, maybe I wouldn’t get bullied so much. She told me it was also against the school dress code because it was “Distracting” to other students.
A couple of boys got together and told my assistant principal that I was looking at their crotches, saying I was flirting with them and making them uncomfortable. I was confronted by my assistant principal, in which I pleaded my case and told her that these boy’s were all from my math class and none of what they said was true. But, we all were giving warnings and told if anything continues we’d be giving disciplinary actions. Well as I knew they continued to bully me I told my assistant principal she just gave them another warning, she believed the boy’s. But, when they said I was making them feel uncomfortable again I was giving I-S-S (In School Suspension). Another boy from the same class said I made him feel uncomfortable because I was singing a song with the ‘D’ word in it. He told my assistant Principal and I was giving a sexual harassment report. The school suspended me from all districts technology for two weeks because I was looking up drag queens.
The bullying continued and it became so bad that I couldn’t identify who was doing it anymore. I began to grow very suicidal and started to self – harm again. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks. My mom had enough and called the school board because the school wouldn’t anything they told her they’d get it to stop but didn’t do anything. When I came back the bullying started immediately and soon after it was as worse as the first time. I continued to cut and my depression grew more and more. Especially with the frustration I got from being home.
I informed my school social worker, and she told me to think about going to Alt school. I would be out the school environment and would be able to concentrate with bringing up my grades. I was at the point to where I could either start fighting, get an education at Alt school, or drop out. I chose to go to Alt school, it’s not prefect, and it’s only for half a day but at least I wouldn’t have to face the bullies all day long. I started to become happier with less bullying and my grades started to come up and I passed all my classes.
Last semester, I also started up my schools first GSA because I don’t want anyone to go through what I went through alone. I got active in the Missouri GSA Network and at the Rally we held on 9/29/13 as part of the National Week of Action to Push Back Against School Push Out we decided to start a committee of Missouri GSA Members and other in our network to continue doing work around Push Out and other important issues and we are calling it MOGSAs4Justice. If you are interested in joining this committee let us know here.